Monday, March 13, 2017

Thoughts on Health

I recently had my Life Insurance renewed and it was also a reality check and wake-up call.

When that happens, they send someone out to check your vitals and draw blood to make sure you aren't dying. As the nurse checked my blood pressure, she asked if it is usually very high or if I take medication. I don't. She asked if I was nervous. Yes, but not to where it would affect my blood pressure. Then she said it was really high and I shouldn't be walking around with blood pressure like this because it isn't healthy. Then it went up more.

I have history of blood pressure issues as well as diabetes in my family. I know I have to take care of myself if I expect to be around to see my grandkids. My Mom passed away 3 years ago and I know that in part it had a lot to do with her size and how she chose to live, eat, and treat her body.

I have been a large guy since High School. My family has lots of large people in it. I am actually the largest in my entire family. I tower over most of them. That, and I am 300+ pounds.

I am resigning to the fact that I cannot eat the way I have my entire life. It's a difficult change, but necessary and needed. If we are ever together having a meal and I decline the things you are eating don't be offended. I just cannot eat certain foods anymore.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Loving Neighbor vs. Bible Thumping

We bought a home exactly a year ago. It was a great move for us. We really wanted to be closer to our church so we could be more involved with the ministry happening daily there. Our move to Sherwood was definitely good for us. It is a great community and a good for raising a family.

Our home was and is a fixer-upper. We are constantly seeing new projects as we finish others. But we love having our own place to live not beholden to a landlord. I also love that our home is kind of hidden behind another on a flag lot. We don't get a lot of solicitors because they don't want to walk down our long driveway, especially at night because it can be dark. I also love our flag lot home because we have neighbors that can see our home from their home. And, they do take note when someone is going toward our home.

During our recent vacation, they would see people going into our driveway and note whether they knew what they were doing, or if they looked like snoopers. I am appreciative of this care and concern by our neighbors.

I am getting to know they better each day. We had a long conversation today about the election. He is concerned about the candidates and is sure we are living in the end times based on his understanding of Revelation. I listened as he told me about how he sees things going beyond and some of NASA's findings about history. He also has an interesting take on the Mormon community here in Sherwood. From what he says, they are great allies if our world falls apart. The desire for Christ's return isn't on his radar...from what I gathered, he sees a "best life now" kind of Christian faith in his life. It was interesting for sure, but I believe he was misinformed.

But I didn't tell him that. Contrary to what people think, I don't shove my opinions into the faces of those I disagree with. Especially the people I don't think are saved in Christ. They are in a sense, still naive to the truth and I want them to hear the truth in a gentle and kind way to better grasp what the Gospel is all about without completely dismissing me before hearing it.

He seems to be a kind person who cares for his family. I see the battle he is witnessing in his own life, in the life of his extended family, and the battle in this nation for truth. I know he wants truth. I know he wants people to be good. He's got a wicked awesome comic book collection too. :)

I'm really trying to be the kind of person Christ has called me to be: full of grace and full of truth.

Pray with me as I minister and try to be a good neighbor to Dean and Wendy and their family.


Tuesday, February 23, 2016

An Open Letter To The “Christian” Hellfire Preachers Outside The Concert

Greetings to you in Christ Jesus,
I hope you are having a great day. I debated not saying anything publicly about this. I did not want to be put in the same category as your group. I know you feel like you accomplished a lot for the kingdom the other night outside the Rock & Worship Roadshow. I could tell you were super passionate about what you were saying because you were screaming louder than anyone else and calling everyone walking out of the arena sinners. I realize your goal was to get people to repent of sin and realize that rock concerts don’t glorify God.

Granted, I don’t know that all the attendees went to the concert to necessarily “glorify” God. I saw a lot of people dancing, singing, and just happy to hear some good music. For their credit, many of the artists songs were about God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, worship, salvation, discipleship, and, yes, the rejection of sin. There were one or two that sang songs that had nothing to do with any of that. And I didn’t particularly enjoy those bands.

Can I level with you Mr. Brimstone? There was a time when a preacher in a church I used to attend made fun of guys like you (true story). The minister called what you were doing fruitless and ineffective. What you were doing was a slight to Christianity. As he made fun of you, the rest of the church laughed and giggled at the parody that was on display from the pulpit. It angered me that they would be so cruel. I was in tears. I shouted “This is so inappropriate!” as I walked to the restroom to weep. My thoughts were that you were doing what you believed you were called to do even if it was not the proper way. I was sad that my church was making fun of someone even though they were poking at a fanatic. I was crying that perhaps they would do that to me if I went and shared my faith in an unorthodox way. I rejected that church. They all had sunk to a low that they could not gain back favor in my eyes. You were na├»ve people teaching the law without the Gospel of Jesus, but you were sincere. You just needed a shepherd to teach you the proper Gospel. You need the Savior too.

But, I have to say, the other night you made me feel less sorry for you. As we walked out, you were screaming at people and treating them like they were crap to be trampled on. Your legalistic ranting was from a place of moral superiority. I could have easily gone over to you and shared the true teachings, but you wouldn’t have listened. I’m sure many people tried that night and you’ve probably heard all of their arguments before. Would you care? Did you know that you are a sinner too? Did you know that Jesus asked for mercy first over sacrifice? Did you know that the Gospel is for everyone? Do you know that we are saved by grace through faith and not by works? Do you ever feel real compassion for the lost, not the displayed anger-condemnation that you think is the loving response to sin?

As we walked swiftly around your gathered group, my children gripped my hands tightly. They were terrified of these people shouting, wearing shirts with flames on them, and proclaiming that we were all headed to the gates of hell. My daughter, whom we are teaching to take a breath before she responds, because she gets angry easily, was so confused. How could these people preach the same Jesus we preach while screaming at the masses of people who had just spent 5 hours together worshiping the God of the Universe?

I told my daughter that your group was not following Christ. I told my children that you don’t know your Bibles. I told them that there are groups like yours that have distorted God’s Word to make yourselves feel more righteous and pious. Thank you for scaring my children and making them feel unsafe around other “Christians”. It is no wonder the people of our nation reject Christianity when they see groups like yours. And, you cannot claim the Scriptures that speak about the world persecuting you. You put yourselves in that position. The only Christians being persecuted were the ones leaving the arena that night.

As a minister, I am using every ounce of my energy to teach the young people of our church what it means to be a mature follower of Jesus. It means giving up a lot of our selfishness. It means not exploding in anger. It means taking responsibility for our actions and committing to the body of Christ. What you are teaching is immature beyond the scope of the cross. You show that you still need milk because you have rejected the solid food of Jesus (1 Corinthians 3:1-3). People are more likely to listen when you teach from a place of gentleness and respect (1 Peter 3:15).

I won’t defend you any longer. I won’t put up with people who continue to mock you, but I won’t defend you either. I pity you. I will pray for you (Matthew 5:44). In Jesus’ holy name.

Mike Lewis
Follower of Christ Jesus
Minister of the Gospel
Attendee of the Rock & Worship Roadshow 2016


Monday, November 09, 2015

My Worship World: Woodinville Youth Rally

I have wanted to do this for a while. My close friends and those that live life with me on Facebook know that I am frequently contacted by other Churches of Christ to come be a guest worship leader. Leading God's people in worship is a passion of mine.

I want to be able to share things about worship with others and thought I should talk about recent worship sessions and give some tips or ideas. So I will occasionally share these opportunities.

This weekend I led worship for the Woodinville Church of Christ in Washington State. They were having a youth rally and my name was given as someone who could be a guest leader. I will usually say yes because I love to lead worship.

Their theme was "Legacy" as it was their 10th annual rally. We heard from Mitch Wilburn about what that means to leave a legacy and what Luke wrote about in the book of Acts. I decided that in the spirit of the theme, I would use my worship time to share a story or two from the songs we sang to talk about the authors and why they wrote the songs they did.

One song in particular was one I felt moved to share. It was the story of George Matheson. He wrote the hymn "O Love That Will Not Let Me Go".

No, we didn't sing this song during the youth rally portion. I led this song on Sunday morning for the entire church worship, but the rally was still technically happening.

George Matheson was going blind as a teenager. By the time he was in college he had lost his vision entirely. A sad thing for such a young person. His sisters decided to help him finish school by reading him his books and helping him learn his material. As he eventually went to seminary, they went so far as to learn Greek, Hebrew, and Latin so that they could teach him the Biblical languages.

The story goes that while in ministry his fiancee decided she could not go on in life and marry a blind man so she broke off the relationship. He never really got over her. When his sister was getting married, all the past feelings of sadness came back to him. But he knew his God and wrote the hymn for her wedding. He knew the God that gave him joy in suffering. Hope in hopelessness. Strength when he had fear. May we never give up because life gets difficult.

Here are the words to the song and a video of the Westminster Chorus singing a haunting rendition of that hymn.

O Love that will not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in Thee;
I give Thee back the life I owe,
That in Thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be.

O Light that follow'st all my way,
I yield my flick’ring torch to Thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in Thy sunshine’s blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be.

O Joy that seekest me through pain,
I cannot close my heart to Thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
And feel the promise is not vain,
That morn shall tearless be.

O Cross that liftest up my head,
I dare not ask to fly from Thee;
I lay in dust life’s glory dead,
And from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be.


Monday, November 02, 2015

Yes, We Can Be Objective

It is common to hear in many critical circles that people read the Bible through a lens of subjectivity depending on where one was born, where one lives, what kind of governmental system one is subject to, and many other factors.

We all have things that affect how we read and interpret Scripture, but it is a fallacy to say that one cannot be objective in the way they approach and read God's Word. Our lens is just that; a lens. We see things through it, but some of the things we see are plain for everyone to see. The better question is can you accept what God has said in the Bible?

The problem with critics of this truth is they want us to believe that we are incapable of understanding Scripture unless they help us to interpret it "correctly" which usually means to see it through their lens. Isn't that a biased way of approaching Scripture in itself? By this reasoning, there is no way to know anything in the world objectively--Nonsense! And that is where the postmodern movement has directed us. I think we are very intelligent people who can come to a valid conclusion of what Scripture is saying whether we are prosperous Americans or poor Asians, or whether we are in a male dominated society or whether our society is dominated by feminists. It is possible to remove a presupposition and to analyze what we are reading in order to come to a basic conclusion. What we need is honest study and to dig into the Word to examine what it says.

I believe the bigger issue is an overcontextualization in saying that since this writing was for a Hebrew audience, it has nothing to say to us in 21st century America. I've heard it said that since Paul's letter was for a Roman church, for example, it was only for the Roman church. The problem with this is that Paul himself said that he taught every church the same thing.

I am writing this not to shame you but to warn you as my dear children. Even if you had ten thousand guardians in Christ, you do not have many fathers, for in Christ Jesus I became your father through the gospel. Therefore I urge you to imitate me. For this reason I have sent to you Timothy, my son whom I love, who is faithful in the Lord. He will remind you of my way of life in Christ Jesus, which agrees with what I teach everywhere in every church. -- 1 Corinthians 4:14-17 (ESV)

We have been given the Bible to understand God's will which includes some instruction, some direction, some prescription, and some description (this will be a future post).

Some things are just plain to see. Truth is universal and absolute. Because truth is absolute and universal, it is possible for one to read God's Word and find the truth. When you find it, it should change the way you think and how you react to the world around you.

God has given us ears to hear and eyes to see. We should be well equipped to use them as He has seen fit to give them to us. Let us be humble in our approach to Scripture. Let us be honest when it says something that doesn't fit what our itching ears want to hear.

May our God of wisdom and understanding allow you to find His truth. (He will. He always does.)


Friday, July 03, 2015

The Law of the Lord

"I just don't know how God could condemn him. He's such a good person."

"He is kind and helps others. He gives money to the homeless and volunteers at the soup kitchen."

"She has been to other countries to help orphanages."

I am sure you have heard many similar platitudes describing people you know. I have heard these types of statements made about people who do these nice things for others but aren't Christians. In fact I have heard these things said about people who are outright pagans and mock Christ and those that believe in God's Word, His church, and believe it is all true.

Even in our own circles of Christian friends I know many people who believe God is saving every "good" person simply because they do nice things for others. For example, Ellen DeGeneres is lauded for the nice things she does for people. As a celebrity with a network television budget, she is able to frequently give away gobs of money and, taking after Oprah, every Christmas spends time giving the whole audience presents. I've seen countless times when someone is sick or has a life problem, Ellen will hear about it and surprise them with monetary help. Many Christians I know believe Ellen will one day occupy heaven because she does nice things for so many people.

So, what about it? Are there really non-Christians, people who do not hold to the teaching in Scripture, who are kind, helpful, good, and nice who will be in heaven with those who lived their lives following Christ, His teaching, believing in Him, having faith, struggling with sin, striving to overcome it, and persevering to be what Scripture has called us to be?

Unfortunately, I don't believe that is true (and I'm not just talking about Ellen or homosexuality). In fact Scripture explains this dichotomy really well.

When Moses brought back the commandments of God, he also reported to the Israelites that God had heard their cries. He wanted to help them. It is why they were rescued from Egypt. God also longed for His people to remember always their love for Him.

"Oh that they had such a heart as this always, to fear me and to keep all my commandments, that it might go well with them and with their descendants forever!" -- Deuteronomy 5:29 [ESV]

Our God said yes! He would free them! But, He also wanted them to remember how much they loved and want to obey Him. He knew they would forget. So, He had Moses there and spoke more to him about what was next and Moses reported:

"Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates." -- Deuteronomy 6:4-9 [ESV]

God knew His people would forget. But, these were things that were natural, perfect laws. They are just, right, and good. God wrote these laws on our hearts. Even still, He commanded His people to write these commands everywhere so that they would see them all the time and be reminded. [At this time, I am brought to mind that in this country, we are removing these commands as monuments from our city and county squares because people don't want to see it...irony of ironies.] God also commanded that these be taught diligently to our children and we should speak of them all times of the day so that their entire families will be familiar and knowledgeable about His commands.

The author of Hebrews (in chapter 8) reminds his readers that God's commands are written on all our hearts. It was God's covenant. For those who are arguing that this was the old covenant and it no longer applies, I appeal to Paul's words to the Greeks at Corinth. He spoke of the old covenant written on stone, but that the new covenant, spoken with words from flesh and bone, written by the Spirit, is also written on tablets of human hearts (2 Corinthians 3:2-3).

He also writes to the Roman church that God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit (Romans 5:5).

God's commands; His law, is written on our hearts.

When Paul writes to the Roman church:

For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. -- Romans 1:20-21 [ESV]

he is reminding them that God has written His will on our hearts including those who do not obey Him. So, what about the good, kind, and helpful people who do not follow or obey God? What does this have to do with them?

Those "good people" do good things because deep down, they know what is good and will do some good things. It is written on their hearts. It is only natural. Even the most despicable people have done good, kind, and nice things for others. You'll often hear of someone who does something really horrible and the news reporters ask their neighbors if they ever saw anything. Their neighbors usually say something to the effect of, "No, they were really quiet, but nice to me every time I saw them." "Good people" also do bad things. Some do very bad things and are unrepentant for it. They think their good will outweigh their bad. Thus, they have no need for a Savior. They will do life on their own.

God's people embody and reflect the fruit of the Spirit. Not just some of the fruit. All of the fruit. It comes from a life living for Him and a life that is daily being saved by Him. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I have yet to meet someone who lives all nine of these attributes who does not follow Christ. Believers do. And when they fall short, they repent.

Are those people really good? Even Jesus did not call himself good. When the rich young ruler asked Jesus:

"Good Teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?" And Jesus said to him, "Why do you call me good? No one is good except God alone." -- Luke 18:18-19 [ESV]

Jesus wasn't trying to ask a trick question. He was serious. Why are you calling someone good simply because they do good, kind, helpful things for people? Our works do not make us good. They are a reflection of the Spirit living in us; the fruit of the Spirit. An unbeliever cannot reflect the fruit of a Spirit they ignore.

Finally, Paul's words to the Romans about "good people":

"None is righteous, no, not one; no one understands; no one seeks for God. All have turned aside; together they have become worthless; no one does good, not even one."
"Their throat is an open grave; they use their tongues to deceive."
"The venom of asps is under their lips."
"Their mouth is full of curses and bitterness."
"Their feet are swift to shed blood; in their paths are ruin and misery, and the way of peace they have not known."
"There is no fear of God before their eyes."
Now we know that whatever the law says it speaks to those who are under the law, so that every mouth may be stopped, and the whole world may be held accountable to God. For by works of the law no human being will be justified in his sight, since through the law comes knowledge of sin. -- Romans 3:10-20 [ESV]

We all sin. We all have faults. We all need Jesus. It is only in Him that we find eternal life. Our friends who are unrepentant in sinning are not saved simply because they are nice people, tell funny jokes, like the same music as us, watch the same television shows, are fans of the same sports teams, and might some day perform a grand gesture to someone that might make a Christian look foolish in comparison.

Lying, gossip, sexual immorality, stealing, murder, disobeying our parents, homosexuality, filthy language, envy, slander, and a host of other sins are all wrong and God will be the only one who will decide our sentence. But if we don't care and don't repent, we won't be saved. Telling people we accept them as they are and never telling them they are wrong is not kind. It is not good. It is not helpful. We are just as guilty when we "tolerate" sinful behavior. We should always be gentle. Always be loving. Always be kind. Our gentleness, love, and kindness (fruit of the Spirit) must be tempered with faithfulness, patience, and self-control along the truth of God's Word. We speak in Spirit (from fruit) and in truth. (John 4:24)

People are in our lives for us to share the Good News of Jesus' saving grace. Unless we do, they will not spend eternity with us nor with Christ. Share the Gospel with every person you meet.


Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Book Review: Be The Dad She Needs You To Be

I have to admit that this book brought me to tears. As a Dad of a beautiful, funny, and very smart little girl I don't always feel like I live up to the expectations to be the best Dad I can be. I fail a lot and it always hurts.

Dr. Kevin Leman has written a very good book on being a Father to girls. Be The Dad She Needs You To Be isn't a list of things you should follow and if you follow it to the prescribed "t" you will be a great Dad. Leman gives encouragement and sound advice for when you are feeling insignificant and helpless.

He helps give advice for the mundane things in life all the way to very important and significant topics like sex and dating and when you are fighting with one another.

I want my daughter to make good choices in life and be a great Christian woman. Dr. Leman helped me see how I can improve what I am already doing and those things I am not doing. I shed some tears when I would read parts and feel broken; like I have failed for good and cannot turn things around. But then I would turn the page and see light around the corner for how to improve.

"There's no doubt that dads have a lifetime impact on their daughters. What do you want yours to be? You might be a young dad, or a planning-to-be-a-dad-soon guy, or one with a few gray hairs (or a lot) on your head. You might be one of those dads who has been able to hit on all eight cylinders with his daughter and only wants to tweak the carburetor a little. Or you might have realized, in the course of this book, that you are an MIA dad and want to change that. No matter where you are in your relationship, I guarantee that the daddy-daughter connection can grow stronger. You can make an indelible imprint on your daughter's heart. You can leave a lasting legacy for the next generation." (pg. 227)
I have to recommend Be The Dad She Needs You To Be by Dr. Kevin Leman. I give it 5 out of 5 stars.

I received this book free from the Harper Collins BookLook program. I was not required to write a favorable review. I was only asked to be honest. The words are my own.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Book Review: Rules For Radicals

Rules For Radicals by Saul Alinsky is the primer many community voices have used in the 20th century as their guide to organize labor, industry, and education. Ironically, Alinsky claims some sense of Christian ethic yet uses a quote from Lucifer in the opening of Rules (though he seems to reject Christianity because he believes it is all part of the bourgeois class structure that got us where we are today--and he isn't praising it--so there is a bit of confusion from the get go).

Alinsky suggests that power is corrupt yet his goal is to teach the organizer how to gain more and more power (pg. 10). So, like Marx and Engels teach in The Communist Manifesto, he teaches against something he himself wishes to have because in his mind, having power is bad unless he gets it because he would use it the benevolently. As we know though, Marx was a contemptible person who abused his power. I doubt Alinsky would have used his power well. He admits several times his crimes and his frequency in jail.

Alinsky also speaks like a relativist and outright claims that the organizer begins without truth--because truth is relative and changing (pg. 11). A person of Scripture would disagree with this statement as Jesus and his disciples after him frequently made truth claims.

Another value Alinsky has is to eliminate freedom and the will of governing oneself. He speaks again from Karl Marx's playbook that "The greatest enemy of individual freedom is the individual himself...People cannot be free unless they are willing to sacrifice some of their interests...(pg. xxv from the Prologue)."

I found it quite interesting that much of what Alinsky writes has been, at least in part, directly used and quoted by President Barack Obama, confirming what many know is true--he is a Marxist, and he is very familiar with the tactics Marx, Engels, and Alinsky use to usher in political, social, and theological ideals that run counter to everything we hold to be true. "But those who know the interdependence of man to be his major strength in the struggle out of the muck have not been wise in their exhortations and moral pronouncements that man is his brother's keeper...He is beginning to learn that he will either share part of his material wealth or lose all of it; that he will respect and learn to live with other political ideologies if he wants civilization to go on (pg. 23)."

The problem with this thinking is the many political and theological ideologies are completely different and run counter to one another and cannot coexist in our world. Most ideologies hold the belief that their ideology is correct and cannot work with others. Other ideologies hold at their core belief the desire to destroy anyone who holds a different ideology. They then cannot "learn to live with" other ideologies, though the truly benevolent, loving, and tolerant do.

Yet civilization goes on. It goes on because of the worldview of justice and lawfulness and the civil society that only a few are willing to hold and maintain in our world. It is those that believe in freedom and justice who lead by example and prohibit this Marxist ideology and others like it from gaining ground. It is no wonder then that the Radicals ideology fails. Because if it were to become the majority ideology, we would all be in serious trouble. Because of successful societies (say the United States' for example) we prohibit people like Alinsky from stealing from his neighbor for the good of the many, though that is also becoming more prevalent.

In our society, many see Alinsky's as a viable ideology in part because of Alinsky's own tactics. Rule 13 is how the radical organizers have achieved this disheartening of the people: "Pick the target, freeze it, personalize it, and polarize it (pg. 130)."

Instead of having a rational discussion about issues; instead of looking at reasonable data; instead of arguing principles we have name calling and smear campaigns. If you think President Obama was very even keeled and didn't resort to smearing opponents, then you were duped. Any disagreement with President Obama is immediately countered with "racist" smears even though most of those who disagree with him do so because of principle, not his race. He makes sure this happens while he sits back and says not a word.

We can see that this will be the meme when Hillary Clinton runs for President in 2016, only then it will be "sexist/war on women". Yet, we never heard this come from the Republican side when Clarence Thomas was smeared, Condoleezza Rice on Iraq, Herman Cain for President in 2008, Allen West from Florida, Sarah Palin in 2008, Michelle Bachmann, et al. I could go on all day and include Ben Carson who is currently getting attacked from all sides because of his opposition to the ideals of the President.

Alinsky is no Christian (and he would agree) but he is no scholar either. His cry of hypocrisy is steeped in hypocrisy and misuse of context throughout. It is the way of Alinsky to live and breathe his own ideology which lives in continual contradictions which actually runs counter to his own rule #4: "Make the enemy live up to their own book of rules (pg. 128)." We see this from many today who cry that the world, church, culture is unjust and recites out of context quotes which they do not understand.

I urge everyone to read Rules For Radicals in order to know and understand what we are up against. This ideology is now the vessel that the coming generations will be using to oppose any moral compass whether it be political or theological. I see much of Alinsky's thoughts in the church as well. Shane Claiborne, Brian McLaren, and Jim Wallis have used similar teaching and that should disturb any student of the Word of God.

I'm not going to give this a star rating. I think it is good information to have but I do not endorse any of what Saul Alinsky writes.

I realize there are dozens of printings of this book and no two are the same. The version I own and read is the Vintage Books edition from 1989 and the page numbers quoted reflect this printing. Your copy will likely have different page numbers depending on size of print and page.